Anonymous whispered : School & my parents found out I'm suicidal and depressed and I'm starting counseling now.. And my boyfriend left the day before everyone found out and now he wants me back and he feels horrible for not being there when I needed him. And I don't know what to do because I love him, I really do, but I feel like I need to get better first. But when he comes to visit me I'm not gonna be able to NOT kiss him.. I don't know what to do.. Do I stay friends? Or do I get back together with him?...
Calm your mind. Sit outside. Listen to some piano music. And calm your mind down to the point where you feel light and free.
Then think. Do you really want to let him come back? I’m assuming that you’ve asked me for advice before, so your boyfriend has a little bit of a history of not being there for you.
If you really want him back, then go ahead. If you do not, then stay away from him.
In my own personal experience, I realized too late that the girl I was with did not really care about me at all, and that I continued to forgive her because of some illusory conception that I had of her being “the one”. And, as it turns out, she broke my heart like a wishbone, and she got the longer, better end of things, while I struggled for months in an identity crisis. So, I’d be very cautious.
So, I’m rather biased to your situation. I advise you to do what you think is right, but to not be afraid of being hurt. Because I can guarantee you that either path is overhung with pain, but it’s going to be worth it.
I wish you all the best.